Thursday, January 26, 2012

boy has this been a tough month~~

oh ethan, this has been by far the toughest month since you have been gone physically. i can not wait to hold you in my arms, to hug and to kiss like we aways did. and next month is our 1st big vacation without you, but i know i need to go on for sarah, she deserves happy moments~~
i found out today on july 29,2012 will be the 46 mommas shave for the brave event. i am so happy to be involved in this event, to raise funds for childhood cancer research and also to bond with other mommas mising their babies and some that still have their babies~~
i hope you know, i go on for sarah but i can not wait to be with you again. you are in my thoughts every moment of every day~~

love you more than chocolate my baby boy, mommy

Friday, January 20, 2012

good evening my sweet baby boy~~

oh sweet ethanbug you have been gone physically for 1 years, 4 months, and 16 days. it seems like we have been physically apart for millions of years. notice how i said "physically" because i know you are here in spirit through the signs i get and through your sissy~~
big news baby boy, i am going to raise funds and shave my head at the end of july with the "46 mommas, shave for the brave event" i am so excited to be doing this in your memory and raising funds for research~~kadies mommy sarah is going to be doing it to right beside me, just like you and kadie are now, side by side. i hope she is not being too hard on you, she is a tough little country girl but she loves you~!!
daddy and sarah are both snoring right now as i sit and have my thoughts of you, my beautiful handsome loving hero!
i love you and will write again soon.
i love you more than chocolate my baby, love, mommy